Vacation

This 4th of July weekend is a sort of “last vacation” for me. Literally, since it will probably be the only significant time off for awhile as production steamrolls ahead. (”Time off” is relative as well–there’s still work being done.) But more importantly, it’s my last vacation on a personal level.

I look through my room, or all the “drafts” on my blog, and I see that the obvious problems (messy and unpublished, respectively) are symptomatic of something bigger.

I’ve been learning that, as much as turning pro requires a single commitment, it also requires lots of small, incremental changes. One fuels the other. You have to route every aspect of your actions and character and, as Tucker loves to say, recheck your assumptions. Does this behavior help me? Does it harm me or impede my progress? Or do the same for others? This process never ends for a person interested in growth.

I’m not there yet, I’m not even close. But now I finally feel like I’m starting to see where there is. I can see what I need to do.

Now with all the alcohol, smoked meat, projectiles and explosives hanging around (and the guys here who have received special training from the government to make use of them), I plan to make the most of it.